There have been times during the years of keeping this blog that I have been literally bursting with ideas for things to write about. Sadly, this is not one of those times. At the moment I have an excuse, which is that I’ve been slammed with work since I’m back in an office and my company has had, in simple terms, a change in management. But prior to this, I didn’t have a whole lot going on, and was still at a loss for new ideas. Except for brief moments where great thoughts pop into my head (which typically fade into oblivion before I can get them out), I feel rather stagnant lately.

I suppose I feel like I am at a personal crossroads these days. Though I’ve said it before, and I’m not sure why it seems to be lasting so long. Something inside of me just seems to be stirring, and I don’t know how to unleash it or which direction to go in. I’m now two
years into my 30s, and I just feel like I need to do more with my life, it feels like my wheels are spinning and time is passing with no real progress. While my 4 months of working from home sure gave me time to get a lot of work done around the house and catch up on unfinished projects, I don’t think they helped otherwise.

Over the years I’ve learned that I’ll never be satisfied working for someone else, though at the same time being locked up in my home office wasn’t the solution either. But I do have a clearer vision of my goals, which I need to continue working towards. I guess I’m feeling disappointed that during my time working from home I wasn’t able to make any progress in achieving them, but I suppose it means that it was not the right time.

You may notice that I mentioned the fact that I am now back in an office. The short story is that my prior company is no longer and I now work for a new company. We’re in a new office, but the work is much the same, as are co-workers, the only exception being management. The details are strange and convoluted, but the short of it is that a new company bought the prior company’s assets (the company had too much debt to continue, so they sold the assets, thereby enabling that company to dissolve, while we were hired into a “new” company), including me, and thus everything else is much the same.

This is keeping me busy and though eating up what used to be free time, it is also helping me more clearly define what I want moving forward. The other thing is that it is helping me prioritize my time better, so hopefully even though I am much more busy, I am going to really assert myself and try to start getting side work which will enable me to pursue my true goal of employing myself.

What do you do when you feel like you are stuck in your routine and feel that you aren’t making any personal progress?

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Originally posted on Monday, November 8th, 2010 at 6:21 AM .